Lots of stuff has happened this week. First...bad news. I strained my patellar tendon in my left knee. Suckarooni!!!! I woke up in a lot of pain on Thursday. I narrowed down the area of pain. I 'diagnosed' myself because I am an internet doctor. I looked up the anatomy of the knee and was able to see what the cause of the pain probably was. So I looked up stuff on pain in the patellar tendon and came back with a lot of info with what I was experiencing and what potential causes were. So since I fit in the area of potential causes, I went to go see my doctor...just to make him feel good and because I felt like throwing away 15 bucks for a copay. He asked questions, looked at my knee, did some feeling around and came up with a diagnosis. Guess what it was? Yeah well I didn't tell him that I already knew, I wanted to make him feel superior. Then he says....you need to stay off it for at least 2 weeks! These strains can be stubborn in healing and you don't want to injure it more. I was like....huh??? But I have to workout!!!!
Wohhhhh....wait.....what did I say????
But I have to work out!!!!!
That's what I thought I said! Where in the hell did THAT come from?!
He said to talk to my trainer (Sham) and he would be able to work around it. I should still be able to keep moving. Phew!
Then he went over my lab tests. I have complete blood labs done every year. I've got a lot crappy medical history in my family so I'm rightfully paranoid. Well get this...here are the numbers:
Total Cholesterol - 154
Glucose - 93
These are the big numbers I was stunned about. My numbers before this were:
Total Cholesterol - 211
Glucose - 105
All of my numbers came back great! I'm healthy!!!!! The old numbers had me in cardiac danger zone and diabetes danger zone. Considering those are both big parts of my family medical history, this is awesome news!
I met with Sham today and was weighed and measured. And yeah! I'm losing. I knew I was or I at least knew I wasn't going backwards but the numbers are very encouraging! Some numbers stayed the same (my waist...grrrrr) but it just goes to show that weight comes off in different areas all the time. So I'm not begrudging any of it! I think I've lost around 10 inches and 8 or so pounds since I started working out with Sham at the beginning of April. I was with him a couple weeks before that but there wasn't any working out.
So in total ALL of my numbers are GREAT! Aside from the knee thing, I'm very happy!
Friday, May 22, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
D Day +63
It's Tuesday....bleh! I'm running on empty. Sham upped the workout yesterday again. I used a 15 pound cowbell weight (is that what they are called?). I had to do the swinging squat inbetween exercises. Another timed workout. I like the timed workouts better. I think I do better with those because it forces me to pace myself and to keep moving. Plus it plays a mind game on me, for some reason my brain thinks it's not as hard as when they are a certain number of reps for me to do.
I was pretty tired when I got up this morning. I could have stayed in bed alllllllllll day! I was running around right after work last night and I know my body didn't get to have downtime when it wanted. My head hurt because I didn't eat as much as I should have. I went to the movies to, saw Star Trek for the second time...(love that movie!). The person I went with bought a big bag of popcorn and a big soda. I didn't have the urge to dive into and eat it. THAT felt good! I just looked at it (and him...he's not a little guy or a medium sized guy for that matter) and was like yeah...I don't need that.
Where am I feeling it today? My thighs, shoulder area (blades, upper arms, sides of my chest), my knees are a little sore. Not a lactic acid hurt, just sore.
Sham sprang his ankle last Thursday and wasn't able to make Fridays weigh-in so we moved it to this Friday. That's ok, cause I was freer with my eating this weekend. It was planned because of the weigh-in. Since I was already set on letting go a bit this weekend, I couldn't say no to myself. If I did that, I would be thinking about it and binge somewhere down the line. So I did it anyway with no worries. I will make the extra push this week for Fridays weigh-in. I think I'm doing good. I went to the doctor and they had to weigh me and according to their scale I'm doing good. Yeah! Sham said the inches may not necessarily be noticable this next weigh in because it can slow down for some reason, I forget but he said I should notice it in the weight. Who am I to question him? So far he's been right about everything!
I was pretty tired when I got up this morning. I could have stayed in bed alllllllllll day! I was running around right after work last night and I know my body didn't get to have downtime when it wanted. My head hurt because I didn't eat as much as I should have. I went to the movies to, saw Star Trek for the second time...(love that movie!). The person I went with bought a big bag of popcorn and a big soda. I didn't have the urge to dive into and eat it. THAT felt good! I just looked at it (and him...he's not a little guy or a medium sized guy for that matter) and was like yeah...I don't need that.
Where am I feeling it today? My thighs, shoulder area (blades, upper arms, sides of my chest), my knees are a little sore. Not a lactic acid hurt, just sore.
Sham sprang his ankle last Thursday and wasn't able to make Fridays weigh-in so we moved it to this Friday. That's ok, cause I was freer with my eating this weekend. It was planned because of the weigh-in. Since I was already set on letting go a bit this weekend, I couldn't say no to myself. If I did that, I would be thinking about it and binge somewhere down the line. So I did it anyway with no worries. I will make the extra push this week for Fridays weigh-in. I think I'm doing good. I went to the doctor and they had to weigh me and according to their scale I'm doing good. Yeah! Sham said the inches may not necessarily be noticable this next weigh in because it can slow down for some reason, I forget but he said I should notice it in the weight. Who am I to question him? So far he's been right about everything!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
D Day +58
It's been a week since my last post. I'm not neglecting just finding it hard to find a few minutes to sit down and type.
I'm doing really good. My workouts with Sham are getting harder which has to be a good thing because he wouldn't be giving them to me if I couldn't do them. I finish what he sets out...it is NOT easy! I dread it when he goes over all the exercises but in the end I feel so proud of myself for getting through it.
My allergies have flared up again today and my back hurts (...female problems...ugh and I get weighed and measured on Friday! Great!). I went to the doctor yesterday and they weighed me and according to that scale I've lost weight. I wish it was more but I have to tell myself fast weight loss is a thing of the past. That is not good weight loss. The doctor gave me new allergy meds so hopefully this works and I won't be so bad when I get back from working out today.
I didn't do any cardio yesterday, but I just couldn't fit it in. I worked a little late then had to go the doctor then had to come home and make dinner for me and the kids, clean up and by that time it was time for bed! :p I won't beat myself up. I'm been good on my cardio workouts since I got back into it. I was sick for a whoel week two weeks ago.
I have to get blood work done tomorrow so I have to fast until I get that done. Eeeesh. I'm saving that for tomorrow because it's a non-Sham day.
Gotta say that it was nice going to the doctor yesterday and I could say no to all those questions...are you depressed...NOPE...are you having joint pain....NOPE....are you having trouble sleeping....NOPE...is your appetite irregular....NOPE! These were all problems I was having before Sham. My weight was up since the last time I was there but I told her about Sham. I told her the last time I was in the doctor's office was because my head was all messed up, my daughter was critically ill, it was a bad time. I put on weight! But everything since then has resolved itself and I'm on my way back down again. She was happy for me.
Ugh....my lower back!!!!!! I really would like to have my plumbing taken out!
I'm doing really good. My workouts with Sham are getting harder which has to be a good thing because he wouldn't be giving them to me if I couldn't do them. I finish what he sets out...it is NOT easy! I dread it when he goes over all the exercises but in the end I feel so proud of myself for getting through it.
My allergies have flared up again today and my back hurts (...female problems...ugh and I get weighed and measured on Friday! Great!). I went to the doctor yesterday and they weighed me and according to that scale I've lost weight. I wish it was more but I have to tell myself fast weight loss is a thing of the past. That is not good weight loss. The doctor gave me new allergy meds so hopefully this works and I won't be so bad when I get back from working out today.
I didn't do any cardio yesterday, but I just couldn't fit it in. I worked a little late then had to go the doctor then had to come home and make dinner for me and the kids, clean up and by that time it was time for bed! :p I won't beat myself up. I'm been good on my cardio workouts since I got back into it. I was sick for a whoel week two weeks ago.
I have to get blood work done tomorrow so I have to fast until I get that done. Eeeesh. I'm saving that for tomorrow because it's a non-Sham day.
Gotta say that it was nice going to the doctor yesterday and I could say no to all those questions...are you depressed...NOPE...are you having joint pain....NOPE....are you having trouble sleeping....NOPE...is your appetite irregular....NOPE! These were all problems I was having before Sham. My weight was up since the last time I was there but I told her about Sham. I told her the last time I was in the doctor's office was because my head was all messed up, my daughter was critically ill, it was a bad time. I put on weight! But everything since then has resolved itself and I'm on my way back down again. She was happy for me.
Ugh....my lower back!!!!!! I really would like to have my plumbing taken out!
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
D Day +50
I'm feeling sooooooooooooooo much better! Feels good to be among the living again.
The back of my legs are sore from the hip raises I did yesterday but that's ok. I miss feeling like this...does that sound crazy or what?! Well it feels good because I know that I'm moving and I'm working towards my goal and its working! Yippee!
I've been getting compliments from people who haven't seen me in awhile. It sure does make the soreness worthwhile!
Off to get my heart rate up!
The back of my legs are sore from the hip raises I did yesterday but that's ok. I miss feeling like this...does that sound crazy or what?! Well it feels good because I know that I'm moving and I'm working towards my goal and its working! Yippee!
I've been getting compliments from people who haven't seen me in awhile. It sure does make the soreness worthwhile!
Off to get my heart rate up!
Monday, May 4, 2009
D Day +49
I totally hit the wall last week! I measured on April 22nd and I lost about 6 inches! Wow, pretty groovy. Not bad with 3 full weeks of working out with Sham. But then....I got sick.
I got really really sick. I haven't worked out with Sham since LAST Monday! Ugh... I haven't done squat (no pun intended). As for eating right, well that was all out the window. I didn't go to work, I rolled out of bed around noonish then went straight to the couch where I would stay til I went back to bed. I managed to get up a few times to make myself soup. I didn't drink a whole lot of water. Which is bad period. Gotta drink water regardless if you're sick or not. But I just didn't have the energy to eat let alone drink. When I did have water, it tasted so disgusting. You know that sick taste you have in your mouth when you're well....sick? Water does not mix well with that. I didn't take my vitamins either. I tried but my stomache wasn't having it.
I'm still sick but feeling alot better. I am very stuffy but the nose is running which is a good thing! It wasn't running at all last week, tons of congestion so I know things are finally flushing from my body.
I ate breakfast today for the first time in a week - a couple boiled eggs and an apple and water. Water still is not tasting good. I also took my vitamins. Tummy still doesn't like them but it's tolerating them anyway. I had some green tea too. Some fancy kind my girlfriend sent me. Supposed to be all natural. Straight from China. I've had it for awhile but didn't want to open the package because it was so pretty. Ladies, you know where I'm coing from on this.
Anyway, I'm meeting Sham in about an hour and a half. I'm so scared. My muscles are feeling like mush. Not a whole lot of movement at all in the past week. Not even core exercises. But at least it was no movement due to being sick and not because I just didn't care and was being lazy.
It's going to feel like the first time all over again. Ugh. But gotta get started again somehow!
I got really really sick. I haven't worked out with Sham since LAST Monday! Ugh... I haven't done squat (no pun intended). As for eating right, well that was all out the window. I didn't go to work, I rolled out of bed around noonish then went straight to the couch where I would stay til I went back to bed. I managed to get up a few times to make myself soup. I didn't drink a whole lot of water. Which is bad period. Gotta drink water regardless if you're sick or not. But I just didn't have the energy to eat let alone drink. When I did have water, it tasted so disgusting. You know that sick taste you have in your mouth when you're well....sick? Water does not mix well with that. I didn't take my vitamins either. I tried but my stomache wasn't having it.
I'm still sick but feeling alot better. I am very stuffy but the nose is running which is a good thing! It wasn't running at all last week, tons of congestion so I know things are finally flushing from my body.
I ate breakfast today for the first time in a week - a couple boiled eggs and an apple and water. Water still is not tasting good. I also took my vitamins. Tummy still doesn't like them but it's tolerating them anyway. I had some green tea too. Some fancy kind my girlfriend sent me. Supposed to be all natural. Straight from China. I've had it for awhile but didn't want to open the package because it was so pretty. Ladies, you know where I'm coing from on this.
Anyway, I'm meeting Sham in about an hour and a half. I'm so scared. My muscles are feeling like mush. Not a whole lot of movement at all in the past week. Not even core exercises. But at least it was no movement due to being sick and not because I just didn't care and was being lazy.
It's going to feel like the first time all over again. Ugh. But gotta get started again somehow!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
D Day +36
It is HOT this morning. I do not like Sacramento when it is HOT! I hate heat! Yesterday my work out with Sham was I guess you could say...not as hard. He brought what looked like a volleyball. I put it on the ground I went to pick it up thinking it was feather light and....ooomph! It was like a ten pound ball! Should have known the workout wasn't going to be easy!
It was very hot yesterday afternoon and working out on grass makes it that much hotter. I felt like I was moving through molasses. I had to do more exercises that had me in squat positions. I had to get the medicine ball, raise it up and slam it to the ground in a squat position. Then I had to get in a squat position and throw the ball up as high as I could. Then I had to get the ball and walk or run as fast as I could to a point and back and start all over again. Not easy for me to do in the heat. Sham took pictures of me doing those. Nice!
I did it. Sham knows how to get me. I'm competitive. When I hear him say, '...no one has finished this' or '...only one person has been able to finish this set' that puts me in Seabiscuit mode! I will get a burst of energy. I may not finish as fast as I think I should but dammit, no one is going to say I didn't finish something or I couldn't do it. After our timed workouts I'm always asking him...'how fast was I....is that good? Don't lie, tell me if I'm slow!' I want to be the best. Yeah I was that kid in school who always had to sit up front closest to the teacher and was the first to raise her hand to answer anything and everything. You all had one of those in your class. The one you couldn't stand, the one you talked about, the one you called 'teacher's pet. I didn't care. I was never afraid to face down anyone, even if they were bigger than me. Many times girls would want to fight me for some lame reason but they never counted on me accepting their challenge. Funny how just looking someone in the eye will cause someone to think twice.
That's how I look at these workouts. I'm staring them in the eye. You won't break me. You may come close but it will only make me stronger for the next challenge.
Tomorrow is my weigh in and new measurements. I feel good about it. For the most part, I have done everything Sham has told me to do. I do not leave the house without food. I'm eating fruit now. I am getting to bed at a good hour and I'm exercising when not with Sham. In a nutshell, I'm taking care of myself and taking into account how something is going to negatively affect me and my progress. It feels good.
It was very hot yesterday afternoon and working out on grass makes it that much hotter. I felt like I was moving through molasses. I had to do more exercises that had me in squat positions. I had to get the medicine ball, raise it up and slam it to the ground in a squat position. Then I had to get in a squat position and throw the ball up as high as I could. Then I had to get the ball and walk or run as fast as I could to a point and back and start all over again. Not easy for me to do in the heat. Sham took pictures of me doing those. Nice!
I did it. Sham knows how to get me. I'm competitive. When I hear him say, '...no one has finished this' or '...only one person has been able to finish this set' that puts me in Seabiscuit mode! I will get a burst of energy. I may not finish as fast as I think I should but dammit, no one is going to say I didn't finish something or I couldn't do it. After our timed workouts I'm always asking him...'how fast was I....is that good? Don't lie, tell me if I'm slow!' I want to be the best. Yeah I was that kid in school who always had to sit up front closest to the teacher and was the first to raise her hand to answer anything and everything. You all had one of those in your class. The one you couldn't stand, the one you talked about, the one you called 'teacher's pet. I didn't care. I was never afraid to face down anyone, even if they were bigger than me. Many times girls would want to fight me for some lame reason but they never counted on me accepting their challenge. Funny how just looking someone in the eye will cause someone to think twice.
That's how I look at these workouts. I'm staring them in the eye. You won't break me. You may come close but it will only make me stronger for the next challenge.
Tomorrow is my weigh in and new measurements. I feel good about it. For the most part, I have done everything Sham has told me to do. I do not leave the house without food. I'm eating fruit now. I am getting to bed at a good hour and I'm exercising when not with Sham. In a nutshell, I'm taking care of myself and taking into account how something is going to negatively affect me and my progress. It feels good.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
D Day +29
My thighs are feelin' it today!!!
I'm putting together my workout music tonight. All Rocky music! When I was working out with Sham yesterday, I was having a lot of trouble with my upper body exercise. He had me in a squat position and my lifting arm up, bent at the elbow in a right angle. I was to lift a ten pound weight up like I was pushing it up. It was hardest on my right arm, the injured shoulder arm. Anyway, the last set I closed my eyes and told myself to go! I pictured the scene in Rocky IV where he put everyone in a cart and lifted them all up. You can hear the music! Yesterday at the end of that set, I was Rocky! So I'm making a workout compilation of Rocky music.
I do that alot. I picture Rocky in my head. Rocky could do anything and he's always awesome at bringing that extra push right at the end for a knockout!
I saw these cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuute capri jeans that I would love to be wearing to Denver in July. I'm going to wear them!
Me and Rocky, baby!
Eye of the Tiger!
I'm putting together my workout music tonight. All Rocky music! When I was working out with Sham yesterday, I was having a lot of trouble with my upper body exercise. He had me in a squat position and my lifting arm up, bent at the elbow in a right angle. I was to lift a ten pound weight up like I was pushing it up. It was hardest on my right arm, the injured shoulder arm. Anyway, the last set I closed my eyes and told myself to go! I pictured the scene in Rocky IV where he put everyone in a cart and lifted them all up. You can hear the music! Yesterday at the end of that set, I was Rocky! So I'm making a workout compilation of Rocky music.
I do that alot. I picture Rocky in my head. Rocky could do anything and he's always awesome at bringing that extra push right at the end for a knockout!
I saw these cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuute capri jeans that I would love to be wearing to Denver in July. I'm going to wear them!
Me and Rocky, baby!
Eye of the Tiger!
Monday, April 13, 2009
D Day +28
I've finally got some time to myself. My last day before the real chaos ensues. The kids will be home and we will be in full Spring musical mode. Opening night is Wednesday. This is going to be a very long and arduous next few weeks! Getting home at a decent hour and in bed at an even more decent hour will be out the window. The play won't be over until close to ten every night and then there is getting everything put away and getting the kids out of the dressing room.
So my past week...
Monday started off horribly with that disastrous weekend...that by the way will NEVER happen again! I started going to bed by around 8:30p. Not necessarily to go right to sleep, I knew that was going to happen. I have been listening to an audio book of a book I already read. I like it so much I wanted to read it again but it's over a 1000 pages and the thought of someone reading to me was a lot easier. I would listen to it til about 9p and then start the next phase of sleeping...relaxing and getting used to quiet and darkness and letting myself give in to sleep. It's been going well except I still wake up about every two or three hours. But I am feeling alot better in the morning and I'm making myself get up at 6am, even though I don't really need to. I do have extra time in the morning to EAT and put my makeup on BEFORE I go to work...
I've been very good with my eating. I'm becoming more conscious of what I'm putting in my mouth and doing cardio everyday. My workout today with Sham was VERY hard. I did mostly a curcuit routine of squats with a ten pound weight. WOW...hard...legs shaking...took awhile for my face to chill out after I got back to work.
But I feel good. After today, I know I really need to work on upper body strength. My weak shoulder is getting stronger though...major plus! When I tore my rotator cuff the doctors put me on meds and told me surgery was my only option. I told them I wasn't doing surgery since they couldnt' guarantee that it would work. I stopped taking the pills, I don't like pills anyway and would never have made a good drug addict. I always forgot to take them when I was in pain. Blame my upbringing,we were never allowed to whine when we got hurt.
I get weighed in next week and new measurements taken. Here's to good news!
So my past week...
Monday started off horribly with that disastrous weekend...that by the way will NEVER happen again! I started going to bed by around 8:30p. Not necessarily to go right to sleep, I knew that was going to happen. I have been listening to an audio book of a book I already read. I like it so much I wanted to read it again but it's over a 1000 pages and the thought of someone reading to me was a lot easier. I would listen to it til about 9p and then start the next phase of sleeping...relaxing and getting used to quiet and darkness and letting myself give in to sleep. It's been going well except I still wake up about every two or three hours. But I am feeling alot better in the morning and I'm making myself get up at 6am, even though I don't really need to. I do have extra time in the morning to EAT and put my makeup on BEFORE I go to work...
I've been very good with my eating. I'm becoming more conscious of what I'm putting in my mouth and doing cardio everyday. My workout today with Sham was VERY hard. I did mostly a curcuit routine of squats with a ten pound weight. WOW...hard...legs shaking...took awhile for my face to chill out after I got back to work.
But I feel good. After today, I know I really need to work on upper body strength. My weak shoulder is getting stronger though...major plus! When I tore my rotator cuff the doctors put me on meds and told me surgery was my only option. I told them I wasn't doing surgery since they couldnt' guarantee that it would work. I stopped taking the pills, I don't like pills anyway and would never have made a good drug addict. I always forgot to take them when I was in pain. Blame my upbringing,we were never allowed to whine when we got hurt.
I get weighed in next week and new measurements taken. Here's to good news!
Monday, April 6, 2009
D Day +21
I am so worn out! I had a long long long weekend. It was a bad weekend physically and food wise but I have to put it behind me and move on.
My youngest daughter was sick all last week. I was splitting my time between the office and home. I was ragged. On top of that Sham started working me harder. Which is fine, no complaints on that. It was just one of those weeks.
Friday, I had friends coming over that haven't been over in awhile and we were going to have a Wii Fit night. What I really needed was a Wii Rest night! But the kids were looking forward to it. I barbecued and I was good. Around 11p we called it a night and I was just one limp noodle. We went to bed and were supposed to be going to San Francisco early on Saturday morning. We got up Saturday morning and we were all just dead. My allergies were bad, sore throat and stuffed head. I thought I might have been getting the flu symptoms but thankfully it was just allergies. Since nobody in the house was moving we decided to stay home. Well stay home in the sense we weren't going to San Francisco. I had to go to my mom-in-laws house, then after that, I stopped by my office, then we got lunch. We had mexican. I had two chicken tacos on soft corn tortilla. My daughter's ate my rice and beans (since I don't know how they prepare them I didn't want to eat them), then was a trip to Target...you know how Target goes! By then it was almost 4p! We were all just beat. We got home and collapsed on the couch. My youngest daughter and I stayed there and watched movies until 9p and then went to bed. Oh I forgot to mention before we left in the morning we went to my neighbors rummage sale. LOTS and LOTS of stuff benefitting the Leukemia Society.
I meant to do some kind of work out on Saturday but I just couldn't muster the strength. I figured it would be better to rest then try to force it.
Sunday we got up very early and went to Marine World in Vallejo. I was feeling alot better. I didn't have time to work in my core workout before I left. I'm a little ADD. I got up and started my checklist to get the car packed, the kids up and showered, breakfast, etc... We got in the car pretty much on schedule. The park wasn't too crowded. We went all over the park so I figured the day wasn't a total waste exercise wise because I was walking around. We left the park about 4p, just dragging. It was getting hot and neither of us do well in heat and were hungry! We got back to the car and ate our packed lunch. I made turkey and cheese sandwiches on whole wheat (hard cheese, not processed). I also packed strawberries and grapes but I also packed Lays backed chips (the ones like Pringles). Ok I'm a sucker for chips! I'm a sucker for anythign crunchy, I'm addicted to crunch. Alot of time I don't feel like I've eaten if there is no crunch in my food, no matter how full I am, I just need a little crunch. So I put chips in my sandwich...BAD I know...but I needed crunch! I also had a couple snicker doodle cookies that I made the night before. I love snicker doodles.... We left after that but stopped by my girlfriend's house on the way. She lives down the street from us. We were at her house for a couple hours just sitting in the backyard talking. It was a nice evening. We finally got home about 8p. My body was crashing fast. I was beat. I was starting to get cranky. I'm not a nice sleepy person. We got home, took the dogs for a quick walk and then called it a night.
I went to bed early got lots of sleep and am dreading meeting up with Sham today. But...gotta get over the bad weekend and start fresh. My kids are gone this week (Easter vacation), they are at their dad's. So having to be home early or cooking won't be a problem! Yeah! I work late the days I workout with Sham and the other days I get my cardio in. I will be able to cook any kind of food I like and not have to worry about making something different for the kids. I won't have to get on them at night about homework or worry about play rehearsals. I'm getting relaxed already! I miss them being gone but I do love these breaks!
My youngest daughter was sick all last week. I was splitting my time between the office and home. I was ragged. On top of that Sham started working me harder. Which is fine, no complaints on that. It was just one of those weeks.
Friday, I had friends coming over that haven't been over in awhile and we were going to have a Wii Fit night. What I really needed was a Wii Rest night! But the kids were looking forward to it. I barbecued and I was good. Around 11p we called it a night and I was just one limp noodle. We went to bed and were supposed to be going to San Francisco early on Saturday morning. We got up Saturday morning and we were all just dead. My allergies were bad, sore throat and stuffed head. I thought I might have been getting the flu symptoms but thankfully it was just allergies. Since nobody in the house was moving we decided to stay home. Well stay home in the sense we weren't going to San Francisco. I had to go to my mom-in-laws house, then after that, I stopped by my office, then we got lunch. We had mexican. I had two chicken tacos on soft corn tortilla. My daughter's ate my rice and beans (since I don't know how they prepare them I didn't want to eat them), then was a trip to Target...you know how Target goes! By then it was almost 4p! We were all just beat. We got home and collapsed on the couch. My youngest daughter and I stayed there and watched movies until 9p and then went to bed. Oh I forgot to mention before we left in the morning we went to my neighbors rummage sale. LOTS and LOTS of stuff benefitting the Leukemia Society.
I meant to do some kind of work out on Saturday but I just couldn't muster the strength. I figured it would be better to rest then try to force it.
Sunday we got up very early and went to Marine World in Vallejo. I was feeling alot better. I didn't have time to work in my core workout before I left. I'm a little ADD. I got up and started my checklist to get the car packed, the kids up and showered, breakfast, etc... We got in the car pretty much on schedule. The park wasn't too crowded. We went all over the park so I figured the day wasn't a total waste exercise wise because I was walking around. We left the park about 4p, just dragging. It was getting hot and neither of us do well in heat and were hungry! We got back to the car and ate our packed lunch. I made turkey and cheese sandwiches on whole wheat (hard cheese, not processed). I also packed strawberries and grapes but I also packed Lays backed chips (the ones like Pringles). Ok I'm a sucker for chips! I'm a sucker for anythign crunchy, I'm addicted to crunch. Alot of time I don't feel like I've eaten if there is no crunch in my food, no matter how full I am, I just need a little crunch. So I put chips in my sandwich...BAD I know...but I needed crunch! I also had a couple snicker doodle cookies that I made the night before. I love snicker doodles.... We left after that but stopped by my girlfriend's house on the way. She lives down the street from us. We were at her house for a couple hours just sitting in the backyard talking. It was a nice evening. We finally got home about 8p. My body was crashing fast. I was beat. I was starting to get cranky. I'm not a nice sleepy person. We got home, took the dogs for a quick walk and then called it a night.
I went to bed early got lots of sleep and am dreading meeting up with Sham today. But...gotta get over the bad weekend and start fresh. My kids are gone this week (Easter vacation), they are at their dad's. So having to be home early or cooking won't be a problem! Yeah! I work late the days I workout with Sham and the other days I get my cardio in. I will be able to cook any kind of food I like and not have to worry about making something different for the kids. I won't have to get on them at night about homework or worry about play rehearsals. I'm getting relaxed already! I miss them being gone but I do love these breaks!
Monday, March 30, 2009
D Day +14
I did squats today with ONE leg! I'm a little shaky right now. I never knew I could do that. You guessed it. I just got done with my workout from Sham. We did our core excercises. I'm glad that how I felt during the workout is how I feel at home. I want so much to get the most out of this. It would be a waste of Sham's time AND mine if I didn't put my all into it. As much as I didn't want to workout this weekend, I did it and felt good afterwards. It's kinda like sex...at least for women...you're really tired and you really don't want to but then you do and you're like hey...not so bad! lol I'm showing my age...
He added on new exercises to do at home. One leg squats and regular squats. He showed us the right way to do them and now I know where I should be feeling it if I'm doing it right.
Was it hard today and I know by how I feel today that this isn't the tip of the iceberg yet! Where did that saying come from anyway??? I'm going to find that out. Knowing that, I know I have to be very faithful to my routine at home so it won't be as hard when I meet with Sham.
He added on new exercises to do at home. One leg squats and regular squats. He showed us the right way to do them and now I know where I should be feeling it if I'm doing it right.
Was it hard today and I know by how I feel today that this isn't the tip of the iceberg yet! Where did that saying come from anyway??? I'm going to find that out. Knowing that, I know I have to be very faithful to my routine at home so it won't be as hard when I meet with Sham.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
D Day +12
Yesterday Sham took us through the four core exercises. I now know that no matter how nice I think Sham is I will be doing some serious cursing in the near future. It was hard but I realized just how weak my muscles were. Watching him do it you'd think there were invisible gremlins easily moving him up into position!
I felt pretty good afterwards but about 5 hours later my arms were aching! I'm sure it was the lactic acid building up. As the night wore on it got worse. I drove to my girlfriend Heather's house later for a pow wow on her new husband hunting website. I drive a stick shift...um can you say 'ow'?!
When I got to her house my girlfriend Nicole was there. She is a long distance runner and is the one I credit with really getting my mind focused on this. I told all the girls about the workout and they were congratulating me. Felt good.
I took tylenol last night but realized it wasn't tylenol I needed but ibuprofen. I will need to pick some up today cause I'm down to my last few at home. I will foresee needing those in the near future also!
I woke up this morning and just felt hungover. My arms werne't aching like the night before but I was sore. But I still worked out. I walked around the house for a bit to loosen and wake up. Then I rolled out my mat and put my exercises that I wrote down in front of me and got to work.
It wasn't so bad. I was able to do all the sets except for the Superman. I don't feel I'm doing it right. I can't keep my abs tucked without holding my breath. Must make note to tell Sham.
I'm now off to the office and then going to try to fit in a boke ride or walk at McKinley.
I felt pretty good afterwards but about 5 hours later my arms were aching! I'm sure it was the lactic acid building up. As the night wore on it got worse. I drove to my girlfriend Heather's house later for a pow wow on her new husband hunting website. I drive a stick shift...um can you say 'ow'?!
When I got to her house my girlfriend Nicole was there. She is a long distance runner and is the one I credit with really getting my mind focused on this. I told all the girls about the workout and they were congratulating me. Felt good.
I took tylenol last night but realized it wasn't tylenol I needed but ibuprofen. I will need to pick some up today cause I'm down to my last few at home. I will foresee needing those in the near future also!
I woke up this morning and just felt hungover. My arms werne't aching like the night before but I was sore. But I still worked out. I walked around the house for a bit to loosen and wake up. Then I rolled out my mat and put my exercises that I wrote down in front of me and got to work.
It wasn't so bad. I was able to do all the sets except for the Superman. I don't feel I'm doing it right. I can't keep my abs tucked without holding my breath. Must make note to tell Sham.
I'm now off to the office and then going to try to fit in a boke ride or walk at McKinley.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
D Day +10
I'm back to not feeling great but now I know it's allergies that are bothering me! I love the trees in Sac but ugh, they do a number on my head!
So yesterday Sham taught me how to sit, stand and walk. I've been in my office for a couple hours now and am trying so hard to keep my butt flexed and my abs tucked. I need to work on my shoulders and chin. This is really hard but I'm getting used to it. When I notice that I've let go a little in my stance, I tuck it in. Watch out Jessica Alba...my butt is coming! Ok, so maybe not Jessica Alba but it's all in the mindset, right? :)
I had a couple boiled eggs for breakfast. I brought an orange for snack and I brought lunch. Chicken and lots of broccoli. My food is going to be boring this week. I can't get to the grocery store til next week. But I'm eating!
So yesterday Sham taught me how to sit, stand and walk. I've been in my office for a couple hours now and am trying so hard to keep my butt flexed and my abs tucked. I need to work on my shoulders and chin. This is really hard but I'm getting used to it. When I notice that I've let go a little in my stance, I tuck it in. Watch out Jessica Alba...my butt is coming! Ok, so maybe not Jessica Alba but it's all in the mindset, right? :)
I had a couple boiled eggs for breakfast. I brought an orange for snack and I brought lunch. Chicken and lots of broccoli. My food is going to be boring this week. I can't get to the grocery store til next week. But I'm eating!
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
D Day + 9
I haven't been feeling great the past few days. I didn't eat very much and what I did well it didn't stay down to well. I'll just leave it at that...
I rode my bike for 8 miles on Saturday. And yesterday I did a nice 3 mile brisk walk after work. Tomorrow I'm doing another 3 mile brisk walk.
Today I met with Sham and he taught me how to sit, stand, and walk...is this hard! I thought Kegels were hard. Ladies you know what I'm talking about... I'm practicing as I type.
Since I haven't been feeling great, I don't know if it's a cold or just allergies, but it has got me to go to bed EARLY! I'm not sleeping all the way through the night but that will come. I'm getting tired at 9p and earlier. This is very very good. I usually don't get to bed til 1am and then don't go right to sleep. I have to be up around 6a. My sleep habits have not been so good and I don't like sleeping pills, I've been winging it.
I don't have to much to say today. It is my birthday tomorrow! I will be 38. I remember when I turned 30 and I thought that was the end of the world.
Such is life!
I rode my bike for 8 miles on Saturday. And yesterday I did a nice 3 mile brisk walk after work. Tomorrow I'm doing another 3 mile brisk walk.
Today I met with Sham and he taught me how to sit, stand, and walk...is this hard! I thought Kegels were hard. Ladies you know what I'm talking about... I'm practicing as I type.
Since I haven't been feeling great, I don't know if it's a cold or just allergies, but it has got me to go to bed EARLY! I'm not sleeping all the way through the night but that will come. I'm getting tired at 9p and earlier. This is very very good. I usually don't get to bed til 1am and then don't go right to sleep. I have to be up around 6a. My sleep habits have not been so good and I don't like sleeping pills, I've been winging it.
I don't have to much to say today. It is my birthday tomorrow! I will be 38. I remember when I turned 30 and I thought that was the end of the world.
Such is life!
Thursday, March 19, 2009
D Day +3
Wow...I met with Sham today. My very first official day in the 12 week program! What a sobering day it was. I knew my numbers were bad but wow....they were bad. I've gained 25 pounds since my daughter was released from the hospital last May. It was a horrible year and to cope I just let myself go. I was so focused on getting her better, which is a good thing, but I didn't listen to anybody who tried to help me during that whole ordeal. I had to take care of myself. I wasn't sleeping. I wasn't eating and when I did, I ate the wrong foods. I would go out with friends to unwind and drink. I did that quite alot actually - lets be honest with myself here. And I think we all know what alcohol can do to a person. I didn't feel better afterwards, I felt worse. I ignored what the fit of my clothes were telling me, I kept putting off getting back into gear. I got comfortable in relationships when I shouldn't have. It all just snow balled. My daughter is well now, she still gets sick but she is pretty much back to herself. I have no excuses now, do I? No I don't.
No excuses.
I've made a committment to Sham, I'm going to be his best client. I can't let him down because letting him down, will ultimately be destruction for me. Why would I want to do that? I love having a good time and I know people like having a good time with me. I'm to cute to let that happen and why would I deprive people of my cuteness??? ;)
No excuses.
No excuses.
No excuses.
I had to get up very early today (5:30a). My daughter had a dental appointment. I made it early so she wouldn't have to miss school. I'm being a good mom, right? Taking care of my kids. Well I didn't eat breakfast. I dropped her off, came into work for a bit, went to pick her up...stopped by Safeway to get HER breakfast but none for me (something sound a little familiar here??), dropped her off at school, came back to work, tried to make up for lost time by getting right down to it, left to meet Sham, came back to work. But I did grab a yogurt on the way out. But I'm working late to make up for lunch so I'm right back where I started. What does that show her?
No excuses.
I don't have as busy as a weekend so I will be cooking and preparing foods for next week. It's my birthday next Thursday!
No excuses.
I'm going to bed early. Next is to cut out tv entirely (well except for Jeopardy, I need my Jeopardy!) I think when I get home - there's nothing on anyway. Mad Men doesn't start til the end of July! I can catch up on Frontline and Nova on the weekends. I have too much reading to catch up on. This will get me in a meditative state and relaxed and ready for bed.
I'm still excited! I knew this was going to be hard. I am not surprised by my numbers. Deep down I knew what they were. This will work. The numbers are only bad if I choose not to do anything about them. That's not gonna happen.
No excuses!
No excuses.
I've made a committment to Sham, I'm going to be his best client. I can't let him down because letting him down, will ultimately be destruction for me. Why would I want to do that? I love having a good time and I know people like having a good time with me. I'm to cute to let that happen and why would I deprive people of my cuteness??? ;)
No excuses.
No excuses.
No excuses.
I had to get up very early today (5:30a). My daughter had a dental appointment. I made it early so she wouldn't have to miss school. I'm being a good mom, right? Taking care of my kids. Well I didn't eat breakfast. I dropped her off, came into work for a bit, went to pick her up...stopped by Safeway to get HER breakfast but none for me (something sound a little familiar here??), dropped her off at school, came back to work, tried to make up for lost time by getting right down to it, left to meet Sham, came back to work. But I did grab a yogurt on the way out. But I'm working late to make up for lunch so I'm right back where I started. What does that show her?
No excuses.
I don't have as busy as a weekend so I will be cooking and preparing foods for next week. It's my birthday next Thursday!
No excuses.
I'm going to bed early. Next is to cut out tv entirely (well except for Jeopardy, I need my Jeopardy!) I think when I get home - there's nothing on anyway. Mad Men doesn't start til the end of July! I can catch up on Frontline and Nova on the weekends. I have too much reading to catch up on. This will get me in a meditative state and relaxed and ready for bed.
I'm still excited! I knew this was going to be hard. I am not surprised by my numbers. Deep down I knew what they were. This will work. The numbers are only bad if I choose not to do anything about them. That's not gonna happen.
No excuses!
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
D Day +2
I'm hungry today!!!! Why am I hungry today?! And my eyes hurt...but I'm thinking that's allergies.
I went to bed at 9:30 last night. I was soooooo tired. I woke up at 3:30a thinking it was 6:30a...grrrrr. I'm laying in bed starting the wake up process and then I'm like....Hey, if its 6:30a howcome my phone alarm didn't go off and why is it so dark?! I hate when that happens! I went back to sleep and woke up when my alarm went off, I closed my eyes just for a minute and when they opened it was 7am! Jeez my knees... I have to be at work at 7:30a but I live only a couple minutes away. I hopped out of bed and into the shower. Ugh...have to wash my hair today, no way around that. It is growing out and it is thick. Not conduscive to blowdrying in a hurry. Plus my right shoulder has been bothering me (torn rotator cuff) so blow drying isn't something I really look forward to. I made it out of the house by 7:29a...poofy hair and all. Yes it was a hair barrette day!
Yesterday I walked twice aroun McKinley Park. I mapped it on mapmyrun.com and it is 1.11 miles. So that was 2.22 miles. I walked with my girlfriend. But I found it was to easy so next week we're doing 3 rounds.
Is this why I'm so hungry today?! I've eaten my usual breakfast fare this week, yogurt and orange - I know slow down there... I'm usually not hungry at all in the morning. Come 11am I'm starving, so I eat my lunch early. I'm still hungry! I ate all my food. What do I do? I don't want to go out and buy food. I have a bagel in the fridge which I really don't want to eat. Waaaaaaaaaay to many carbs, even though I'm not officially low carbbing it yet. I'm getting myself used to eating during the day again. Over eating is not really my problem or eating the wrong things...I just forgo eating cause I get busy and forget, then when I get home I'm FAMISHED! Sort of like what I'm starting to feel like now. I think I'm going to have to do that cause my stomach is growling - not a good sign.
My eyes really hurt today too. The pollen count is low so it can't be allergies but there's is alot of stuff floating around in the air. I can see it float by my office window. I got good sleep...compared to what I usually get (four hours). I'm saying allergies, the hunger doesn't help either. Ok...gotta go toast the bagel! Gah!
I've been keeping my food log. I'm not eating a whole lot of calories. I've barely broke a 1000 per day this week. This is not good I know and when I start working out with Sham I will have to take in more. But at least I'm eating throughout the day and the morning. I'm not coming home hungry like the werewolf of London. So I count this as a good thing.
Tomorrow I meet with Sham!
I went to bed at 9:30 last night. I was soooooo tired. I woke up at 3:30a thinking it was 6:30a...grrrrr. I'm laying in bed starting the wake up process and then I'm like....Hey, if its 6:30a howcome my phone alarm didn't go off and why is it so dark?! I hate when that happens! I went back to sleep and woke up when my alarm went off, I closed my eyes just for a minute and when they opened it was 7am! Jeez my knees... I have to be at work at 7:30a but I live only a couple minutes away. I hopped out of bed and into the shower. Ugh...have to wash my hair today, no way around that. It is growing out and it is thick. Not conduscive to blowdrying in a hurry. Plus my right shoulder has been bothering me (torn rotator cuff) so blow drying isn't something I really look forward to. I made it out of the house by 7:29a...poofy hair and all. Yes it was a hair barrette day!
Yesterday I walked twice aroun McKinley Park. I mapped it on mapmyrun.com and it is 1.11 miles. So that was 2.22 miles. I walked with my girlfriend. But I found it was to easy so next week we're doing 3 rounds.
Is this why I'm so hungry today?! I've eaten my usual breakfast fare this week, yogurt and orange - I know slow down there... I'm usually not hungry at all in the morning. Come 11am I'm starving, so I eat my lunch early. I'm still hungry! I ate all my food. What do I do? I don't want to go out and buy food. I have a bagel in the fridge which I really don't want to eat. Waaaaaaaaaay to many carbs, even though I'm not officially low carbbing it yet. I'm getting myself used to eating during the day again. Over eating is not really my problem or eating the wrong things...I just forgo eating cause I get busy and forget, then when I get home I'm FAMISHED! Sort of like what I'm starting to feel like now. I think I'm going to have to do that cause my stomach is growling - not a good sign.
My eyes really hurt today too. The pollen count is low so it can't be allergies but there's is alot of stuff floating around in the air. I can see it float by my office window. I got good sleep...compared to what I usually get (four hours). I'm saying allergies, the hunger doesn't help either. Ok...gotta go toast the bagel! Gah!
I've been keeping my food log. I'm not eating a whole lot of calories. I've barely broke a 1000 per day this week. This is not good I know and when I start working out with Sham I will have to take in more. But at least I'm eating throughout the day and the morning. I'm not coming home hungry like the werewolf of London. So I count this as a good thing.
Tomorrow I meet with Sham!
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
D Day +1
I'm sitting at my desk eating a big salad. Since I love salad this is pretty easy for me to do. I'm eating it with salad dressing. I have a feeling though when Sham sees the bottle he may not be toooo happy about it. It's Briana's Blue Cheese Dressing. This I refuse to give up! If Sham tells me know, I may have to put up a fight similiar to the movie, 300. I added water to it and thinned it out. It still tastes good! It's only 5 carbs a serving but it is about 12o calories per serving. I gotta have it, it makes me feel satisfied.
I had a glass of red wine last night...I'm sure Sham will have something to say about that too. But it was only a glass! And it was a small glass. Maybe 6 ounces, just enough to chill me out so I could go to sleep. I don't drink caffeine, fruit juices, or soda so a small glass of wine can't be bad, right? Well I'll find out on Thursday when Sham goes over my food. It might be sayonara to my beloved red wine decanter for awhile. It was nice knowing you, I promise to take you out and polish you every now and then.
I didn't eat very much yesterday but I did bring food to work with me. I got up late againnnnn...and again this morning so I just grabbed some yogurt and an orange. I had salad left over from the weekend so I put it in a baggy. I didn't get home until 10:30 last night...granted I was at a movie...BUT I didn't have any popcorn, cherry slushie, bon bons...you know the usual movie fare. I didn't even look at the counter.
Baby steps...
I have set a goal today of getting to bed no later than 10p and preparing some lunch. Next week I plan to stock the fridge at work with some stuff so I don't have to worry about it.
Baby steps...
I have a feeling after I start working out with Sham that may be how I really will be walking...baby steps!
I had a glass of red wine last night...I'm sure Sham will have something to say about that too. But it was only a glass! And it was a small glass. Maybe 6 ounces, just enough to chill me out so I could go to sleep. I don't drink caffeine, fruit juices, or soda so a small glass of wine can't be bad, right? Well I'll find out on Thursday when Sham goes over my food. It might be sayonara to my beloved red wine decanter for awhile. It was nice knowing you, I promise to take you out and polish you every now and then.
I didn't eat very much yesterday but I did bring food to work with me. I got up late againnnnn...and again this morning so I just grabbed some yogurt and an orange. I had salad left over from the weekend so I put it in a baggy. I didn't get home until 10:30 last night...granted I was at a movie...BUT I didn't have any popcorn, cherry slushie, bon bons...you know the usual movie fare. I didn't even look at the counter.
Baby steps...
I have set a goal today of getting to bed no later than 10p and preparing some lunch. Next week I plan to stock the fridge at work with some stuff so I don't have to worry about it.
Baby steps...
I have a feeling after I start working out with Sham that may be how I really will be walking...baby steps!
Monday, March 16, 2009
D Day
Today is Day 1 of not turning back. The doors of yesterday have closed permanently. No matter how hard I try to open the doors of familiarity and comfort they will not open.
I have started my food log. Who would have thought writing something down would make you feel accountable. You could lie...there's nobody watching you...but for some reason I can't. I thought about getting one of those yummy thick chocolate candy bars someone in my office is selling. But I stopped...I'll have to write it down...*inner demon* No you won't, no one will know!...yes they will because I might as well buy that chocolate bar and glue it on my forehead for everyone to see! Besides...I'll have to write it down and that's worse because it will always be there for ME to look at.
I did my homework last night. I wrote out my goals and sent them to Sham. No turning back. That was really hard, you'd think all you would have to say is...I want to be 125 pounds. Wrong! No matter what the number is you'll always want it to be smaller when you get there. You know how it is, you think your fat at any given time and years later you go back and look at those photos and realize you were really thin! Look at you now! Now you're wishing you appreciated yourself more then. You can't put a number on that but you can definitely feel it when you look in the mirror and like what you see.
So today is Day 1 of not turning back. I know there are going to be days when I might be scratching at the sealed door so I can just taste what it was like to be comfortable again. Those are the days when I'm going to have to dig down deep and tell myself to, Suck It Up!, as I've told so many other people before - including my kids.
It's D-Day, no turning back.
I have started my food log. Who would have thought writing something down would make you feel accountable. You could lie...there's nobody watching you...but for some reason I can't. I thought about getting one of those yummy thick chocolate candy bars someone in my office is selling. But I stopped...I'll have to write it down...*inner demon* No you won't, no one will know!...yes they will because I might as well buy that chocolate bar and glue it on my forehead for everyone to see! Besides...I'll have to write it down and that's worse because it will always be there for ME to look at.
I did my homework last night. I wrote out my goals and sent them to Sham. No turning back. That was really hard, you'd think all you would have to say is...I want to be 125 pounds. Wrong! No matter what the number is you'll always want it to be smaller when you get there. You know how it is, you think your fat at any given time and years later you go back and look at those photos and realize you were really thin! Look at you now! Now you're wishing you appreciated yourself more then. You can't put a number on that but you can definitely feel it when you look in the mirror and like what you see.
So today is Day 1 of not turning back. I know there are going to be days when I might be scratching at the sealed door so I can just taste what it was like to be comfortable again. Those are the days when I'm going to have to dig down deep and tell myself to, Suck It Up!, as I've told so many other people before - including my kids.
It's D-Day, no turning back.
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