I've finally got some time to myself. My last day before the real chaos ensues. The kids will be home and we will be in full Spring musical mode. Opening night is Wednesday. This is going to be a very long and arduous next few weeks! Getting home at a decent hour and in bed at an even more decent hour will be out the window. The play won't be over until close to ten every night and then there is getting everything put away and getting the kids out of the dressing room.
So my past week...
Monday started off horribly with that disastrous weekend...that by the way will NEVER happen again! I started going to bed by around 8:30p. Not necessarily to go right to sleep, I knew that was going to happen. I have been listening to an audio book of a book I already read. I like it so much I wanted to read it again but it's over a 1000 pages and the thought of someone reading to me was a lot easier. I would listen to it til about 9p and then start the next phase of sleeping...relaxing and getting used to quiet and darkness and letting myself give in to sleep. It's been going well except I still wake up about every two or three hours. But I am feeling alot better in the morning and I'm making myself get up at 6am, even though I don't really need to. I do have extra time in the morning to EAT and put my makeup on BEFORE I go to work...
I've been very good with my eating. I'm becoming more conscious of what I'm putting in my mouth and doing cardio everyday. My workout today with Sham was VERY hard. I did mostly a curcuit routine of squats with a ten pound weight. WOW...hard...legs shaking...took awhile for my face to chill out after I got back to work.
But I feel good. After today, I know I really need to work on upper body strength. My weak shoulder is getting stronger though...major plus! When I tore my rotator cuff the doctors put me on meds and told me surgery was my only option. I told them I wasn't doing surgery since they couldnt' guarantee that it would work. I stopped taking the pills, I don't like pills anyway and would never have made a good drug addict. I always forgot to take them when I was in pain. Blame my upbringing,we were never allowed to whine when we got hurt.
I get weighed in next week and new measurements taken. Here's to good news!
Monday, April 13, 2009
Monday, April 6, 2009
D Day +21
I am so worn out! I had a long long long weekend. It was a bad weekend physically and food wise but I have to put it behind me and move on.
My youngest daughter was sick all last week. I was splitting my time between the office and home. I was ragged. On top of that Sham started working me harder. Which is fine, no complaints on that. It was just one of those weeks.
Friday, I had friends coming over that haven't been over in awhile and we were going to have a Wii Fit night. What I really needed was a Wii Rest night! But the kids were looking forward to it. I barbecued and I was good. Around 11p we called it a night and I was just one limp noodle. We went to bed and were supposed to be going to San Francisco early on Saturday morning. We got up Saturday morning and we were all just dead. My allergies were bad, sore throat and stuffed head. I thought I might have been getting the flu symptoms but thankfully it was just allergies. Since nobody in the house was moving we decided to stay home. Well stay home in the sense we weren't going to San Francisco. I had to go to my mom-in-laws house, then after that, I stopped by my office, then we got lunch. We had mexican. I had two chicken tacos on soft corn tortilla. My daughter's ate my rice and beans (since I don't know how they prepare them I didn't want to eat them), then was a trip to Target...you know how Target goes! By then it was almost 4p! We were all just beat. We got home and collapsed on the couch. My youngest daughter and I stayed there and watched movies until 9p and then went to bed. Oh I forgot to mention before we left in the morning we went to my neighbors rummage sale. LOTS and LOTS of stuff benefitting the Leukemia Society.
I meant to do some kind of work out on Saturday but I just couldn't muster the strength. I figured it would be better to rest then try to force it.
Sunday we got up very early and went to Marine World in Vallejo. I was feeling alot better. I didn't have time to work in my core workout before I left. I'm a little ADD. I got up and started my checklist to get the car packed, the kids up and showered, breakfast, etc... We got in the car pretty much on schedule. The park wasn't too crowded. We went all over the park so I figured the day wasn't a total waste exercise wise because I was walking around. We left the park about 4p, just dragging. It was getting hot and neither of us do well in heat and were hungry! We got back to the car and ate our packed lunch. I made turkey and cheese sandwiches on whole wheat (hard cheese, not processed). I also packed strawberries and grapes but I also packed Lays backed chips (the ones like Pringles). Ok I'm a sucker for chips! I'm a sucker for anythign crunchy, I'm addicted to crunch. Alot of time I don't feel like I've eaten if there is no crunch in my food, no matter how full I am, I just need a little crunch. So I put chips in my sandwich...BAD I know...but I needed crunch! I also had a couple snicker doodle cookies that I made the night before. I love snicker doodles.... We left after that but stopped by my girlfriend's house on the way. She lives down the street from us. We were at her house for a couple hours just sitting in the backyard talking. It was a nice evening. We finally got home about 8p. My body was crashing fast. I was beat. I was starting to get cranky. I'm not a nice sleepy person. We got home, took the dogs for a quick walk and then called it a night.
I went to bed early got lots of sleep and am dreading meeting up with Sham today. But...gotta get over the bad weekend and start fresh. My kids are gone this week (Easter vacation), they are at their dad's. So having to be home early or cooking won't be a problem! Yeah! I work late the days I workout with Sham and the other days I get my cardio in. I will be able to cook any kind of food I like and not have to worry about making something different for the kids. I won't have to get on them at night about homework or worry about play rehearsals. I'm getting relaxed already! I miss them being gone but I do love these breaks!
My youngest daughter was sick all last week. I was splitting my time between the office and home. I was ragged. On top of that Sham started working me harder. Which is fine, no complaints on that. It was just one of those weeks.
Friday, I had friends coming over that haven't been over in awhile and we were going to have a Wii Fit night. What I really needed was a Wii Rest night! But the kids were looking forward to it. I barbecued and I was good. Around 11p we called it a night and I was just one limp noodle. We went to bed and were supposed to be going to San Francisco early on Saturday morning. We got up Saturday morning and we were all just dead. My allergies were bad, sore throat and stuffed head. I thought I might have been getting the flu symptoms but thankfully it was just allergies. Since nobody in the house was moving we decided to stay home. Well stay home in the sense we weren't going to San Francisco. I had to go to my mom-in-laws house, then after that, I stopped by my office, then we got lunch. We had mexican. I had two chicken tacos on soft corn tortilla. My daughter's ate my rice and beans (since I don't know how they prepare them I didn't want to eat them), then was a trip to Target...you know how Target goes! By then it was almost 4p! We were all just beat. We got home and collapsed on the couch. My youngest daughter and I stayed there and watched movies until 9p and then went to bed. Oh I forgot to mention before we left in the morning we went to my neighbors rummage sale. LOTS and LOTS of stuff benefitting the Leukemia Society.
I meant to do some kind of work out on Saturday but I just couldn't muster the strength. I figured it would be better to rest then try to force it.
Sunday we got up very early and went to Marine World in Vallejo. I was feeling alot better. I didn't have time to work in my core workout before I left. I'm a little ADD. I got up and started my checklist to get the car packed, the kids up and showered, breakfast, etc... We got in the car pretty much on schedule. The park wasn't too crowded. We went all over the park so I figured the day wasn't a total waste exercise wise because I was walking around. We left the park about 4p, just dragging. It was getting hot and neither of us do well in heat and were hungry! We got back to the car and ate our packed lunch. I made turkey and cheese sandwiches on whole wheat (hard cheese, not processed). I also packed strawberries and grapes but I also packed Lays backed chips (the ones like Pringles). Ok I'm a sucker for chips! I'm a sucker for anythign crunchy, I'm addicted to crunch. Alot of time I don't feel like I've eaten if there is no crunch in my food, no matter how full I am, I just need a little crunch. So I put chips in my sandwich...BAD I know...but I needed crunch! I also had a couple snicker doodle cookies that I made the night before. I love snicker doodles.... We left after that but stopped by my girlfriend's house on the way. She lives down the street from us. We were at her house for a couple hours just sitting in the backyard talking. It was a nice evening. We finally got home about 8p. My body was crashing fast. I was beat. I was starting to get cranky. I'm not a nice sleepy person. We got home, took the dogs for a quick walk and then called it a night.
I went to bed early got lots of sleep and am dreading meeting up with Sham today. But...gotta get over the bad weekend and start fresh. My kids are gone this week (Easter vacation), they are at their dad's. So having to be home early or cooking won't be a problem! Yeah! I work late the days I workout with Sham and the other days I get my cardio in. I will be able to cook any kind of food I like and not have to worry about making something different for the kids. I won't have to get on them at night about homework or worry about play rehearsals. I'm getting relaxed already! I miss them being gone but I do love these breaks!
Monday, March 30, 2009
D Day +14
I did squats today with ONE leg! I'm a little shaky right now. I never knew I could do that. You guessed it. I just got done with my workout from Sham. We did our core excercises. I'm glad that how I felt during the workout is how I feel at home. I want so much to get the most out of this. It would be a waste of Sham's time AND mine if I didn't put my all into it. As much as I didn't want to workout this weekend, I did it and felt good afterwards. It's kinda like sex...at least for women...you're really tired and you really don't want to but then you do and you're like hey...not so bad! lol I'm showing my age...
He added on new exercises to do at home. One leg squats and regular squats. He showed us the right way to do them and now I know where I should be feeling it if I'm doing it right.
Was it hard today and I know by how I feel today that this isn't the tip of the iceberg yet! Where did that saying come from anyway??? I'm going to find that out. Knowing that, I know I have to be very faithful to my routine at home so it won't be as hard when I meet with Sham.
He added on new exercises to do at home. One leg squats and regular squats. He showed us the right way to do them and now I know where I should be feeling it if I'm doing it right.
Was it hard today and I know by how I feel today that this isn't the tip of the iceberg yet! Where did that saying come from anyway??? I'm going to find that out. Knowing that, I know I have to be very faithful to my routine at home so it won't be as hard when I meet with Sham.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
D Day +12
Yesterday Sham took us through the four core exercises. I now know that no matter how nice I think Sham is I will be doing some serious cursing in the near future. It was hard but I realized just how weak my muscles were. Watching him do it you'd think there were invisible gremlins easily moving him up into position!
I felt pretty good afterwards but about 5 hours later my arms were aching! I'm sure it was the lactic acid building up. As the night wore on it got worse. I drove to my girlfriend Heather's house later for a pow wow on her new husband hunting website. I drive a stick shift...um can you say 'ow'?!
When I got to her house my girlfriend Nicole was there. She is a long distance runner and is the one I credit with really getting my mind focused on this. I told all the girls about the workout and they were congratulating me. Felt good.
I took tylenol last night but realized it wasn't tylenol I needed but ibuprofen. I will need to pick some up today cause I'm down to my last few at home. I will foresee needing those in the near future also!
I woke up this morning and just felt hungover. My arms werne't aching like the night before but I was sore. But I still worked out. I walked around the house for a bit to loosen and wake up. Then I rolled out my mat and put my exercises that I wrote down in front of me and got to work.
It wasn't so bad. I was able to do all the sets except for the Superman. I don't feel I'm doing it right. I can't keep my abs tucked without holding my breath. Must make note to tell Sham.
I'm now off to the office and then going to try to fit in a boke ride or walk at McKinley.
I felt pretty good afterwards but about 5 hours later my arms were aching! I'm sure it was the lactic acid building up. As the night wore on it got worse. I drove to my girlfriend Heather's house later for a pow wow on her new husband hunting website. I drive a stick shift...um can you say 'ow'?!
When I got to her house my girlfriend Nicole was there. She is a long distance runner and is the one I credit with really getting my mind focused on this. I told all the girls about the workout and they were congratulating me. Felt good.
I took tylenol last night but realized it wasn't tylenol I needed but ibuprofen. I will need to pick some up today cause I'm down to my last few at home. I will foresee needing those in the near future also!
I woke up this morning and just felt hungover. My arms werne't aching like the night before but I was sore. But I still worked out. I walked around the house for a bit to loosen and wake up. Then I rolled out my mat and put my exercises that I wrote down in front of me and got to work.
It wasn't so bad. I was able to do all the sets except for the Superman. I don't feel I'm doing it right. I can't keep my abs tucked without holding my breath. Must make note to tell Sham.
I'm now off to the office and then going to try to fit in a boke ride or walk at McKinley.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
D Day +10
I'm back to not feeling great but now I know it's allergies that are bothering me! I love the trees in Sac but ugh, they do a number on my head!
So yesterday Sham taught me how to sit, stand and walk. I've been in my office for a couple hours now and am trying so hard to keep my butt flexed and my abs tucked. I need to work on my shoulders and chin. This is really hard but I'm getting used to it. When I notice that I've let go a little in my stance, I tuck it in. Watch out Jessica Alba...my butt is coming! Ok, so maybe not Jessica Alba but it's all in the mindset, right? :)
I had a couple boiled eggs for breakfast. I brought an orange for snack and I brought lunch. Chicken and lots of broccoli. My food is going to be boring this week. I can't get to the grocery store til next week. But I'm eating!
So yesterday Sham taught me how to sit, stand and walk. I've been in my office for a couple hours now and am trying so hard to keep my butt flexed and my abs tucked. I need to work on my shoulders and chin. This is really hard but I'm getting used to it. When I notice that I've let go a little in my stance, I tuck it in. Watch out Jessica Alba...my butt is coming! Ok, so maybe not Jessica Alba but it's all in the mindset, right? :)
I had a couple boiled eggs for breakfast. I brought an orange for snack and I brought lunch. Chicken and lots of broccoli. My food is going to be boring this week. I can't get to the grocery store til next week. But I'm eating!
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
D Day + 9
I haven't been feeling great the past few days. I didn't eat very much and what I did well it didn't stay down to well. I'll just leave it at that...
I rode my bike for 8 miles on Saturday. And yesterday I did a nice 3 mile brisk walk after work. Tomorrow I'm doing another 3 mile brisk walk.
Today I met with Sham and he taught me how to sit, stand, and walk...is this hard! I thought Kegels were hard. Ladies you know what I'm talking about... I'm practicing as I type.
Since I haven't been feeling great, I don't know if it's a cold or just allergies, but it has got me to go to bed EARLY! I'm not sleeping all the way through the night but that will come. I'm getting tired at 9p and earlier. This is very very good. I usually don't get to bed til 1am and then don't go right to sleep. I have to be up around 6a. My sleep habits have not been so good and I don't like sleeping pills, I've been winging it.
I don't have to much to say today. It is my birthday tomorrow! I will be 38. I remember when I turned 30 and I thought that was the end of the world.
Such is life!
I rode my bike for 8 miles on Saturday. And yesterday I did a nice 3 mile brisk walk after work. Tomorrow I'm doing another 3 mile brisk walk.
Today I met with Sham and he taught me how to sit, stand, and walk...is this hard! I thought Kegels were hard. Ladies you know what I'm talking about... I'm practicing as I type.
Since I haven't been feeling great, I don't know if it's a cold or just allergies, but it has got me to go to bed EARLY! I'm not sleeping all the way through the night but that will come. I'm getting tired at 9p and earlier. This is very very good. I usually don't get to bed til 1am and then don't go right to sleep. I have to be up around 6a. My sleep habits have not been so good and I don't like sleeping pills, I've been winging it.
I don't have to much to say today. It is my birthday tomorrow! I will be 38. I remember when I turned 30 and I thought that was the end of the world.
Such is life!
Thursday, March 19, 2009
D Day +3
Wow...I met with Sham today. My very first official day in the 12 week program! What a sobering day it was. I knew my numbers were bad but wow....they were bad. I've gained 25 pounds since my daughter was released from the hospital last May. It was a horrible year and to cope I just let myself go. I was so focused on getting her better, which is a good thing, but I didn't listen to anybody who tried to help me during that whole ordeal. I had to take care of myself. I wasn't sleeping. I wasn't eating and when I did, I ate the wrong foods. I would go out with friends to unwind and drink. I did that quite alot actually - lets be honest with myself here. And I think we all know what alcohol can do to a person. I didn't feel better afterwards, I felt worse. I ignored what the fit of my clothes were telling me, I kept putting off getting back into gear. I got comfortable in relationships when I shouldn't have. It all just snow balled. My daughter is well now, she still gets sick but she is pretty much back to herself. I have no excuses now, do I? No I don't.
No excuses.
I've made a committment to Sham, I'm going to be his best client. I can't let him down because letting him down, will ultimately be destruction for me. Why would I want to do that? I love having a good time and I know people like having a good time with me. I'm to cute to let that happen and why would I deprive people of my cuteness??? ;)
No excuses.
No excuses.
No excuses.
I had to get up very early today (5:30a). My daughter had a dental appointment. I made it early so she wouldn't have to miss school. I'm being a good mom, right? Taking care of my kids. Well I didn't eat breakfast. I dropped her off, came into work for a bit, went to pick her up...stopped by Safeway to get HER breakfast but none for me (something sound a little familiar here??), dropped her off at school, came back to work, tried to make up for lost time by getting right down to it, left to meet Sham, came back to work. But I did grab a yogurt on the way out. But I'm working late to make up for lunch so I'm right back where I started. What does that show her?
No excuses.
I don't have as busy as a weekend so I will be cooking and preparing foods for next week. It's my birthday next Thursday!
No excuses.
I'm going to bed early. Next is to cut out tv entirely (well except for Jeopardy, I need my Jeopardy!) I think when I get home - there's nothing on anyway. Mad Men doesn't start til the end of July! I can catch up on Frontline and Nova on the weekends. I have too much reading to catch up on. This will get me in a meditative state and relaxed and ready for bed.
I'm still excited! I knew this was going to be hard. I am not surprised by my numbers. Deep down I knew what they were. This will work. The numbers are only bad if I choose not to do anything about them. That's not gonna happen.
No excuses!
No excuses.
I've made a committment to Sham, I'm going to be his best client. I can't let him down because letting him down, will ultimately be destruction for me. Why would I want to do that? I love having a good time and I know people like having a good time with me. I'm to cute to let that happen and why would I deprive people of my cuteness??? ;)
No excuses.
No excuses.
No excuses.
I had to get up very early today (5:30a). My daughter had a dental appointment. I made it early so she wouldn't have to miss school. I'm being a good mom, right? Taking care of my kids. Well I didn't eat breakfast. I dropped her off, came into work for a bit, went to pick her up...stopped by Safeway to get HER breakfast but none for me (something sound a little familiar here??), dropped her off at school, came back to work, tried to make up for lost time by getting right down to it, left to meet Sham, came back to work. But I did grab a yogurt on the way out. But I'm working late to make up for lunch so I'm right back where I started. What does that show her?
No excuses.
I don't have as busy as a weekend so I will be cooking and preparing foods for next week. It's my birthday next Thursday!
No excuses.
I'm going to bed early. Next is to cut out tv entirely (well except for Jeopardy, I need my Jeopardy!) I think when I get home - there's nothing on anyway. Mad Men doesn't start til the end of July! I can catch up on Frontline and Nova on the weekends. I have too much reading to catch up on. This will get me in a meditative state and relaxed and ready for bed.
I'm still excited! I knew this was going to be hard. I am not surprised by my numbers. Deep down I knew what they were. This will work. The numbers are only bad if I choose not to do anything about them. That's not gonna happen.
No excuses!
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